On Belonging

This is a blog about abuse and how abusers use the feeling of belonging to groom their victims. If you are a survivor of abuse, you may be triggered. I hope you will find comfort and healing as well here, and that this blog will help you on your recovery and healing journey.

One way abusers use to groom and control their victims is by giving them a sense of not belonging, of not fitting in, and being different and a feeling of being outside the box when everyone else is inside, of being alone. These are devastating and very damaging feelings to the human psyche, esteem and confidence and development. They cause real and deep pain, sadness and anxiety. Bullies and abusers further instill these beliefs with continuing the bullying, shunning and abuse thoughts with actions.

The beliefs these tactics create make targeted victims very vulnerable to abuse and self destruction. This is why abusers target and groom their victims. They seek those who feel left out, different, and make them feel included and loved. Then they abuse them and often, due to the grooming, get away with it. Its why including victimized, bullied people, giving them a sense they belong and fit in is one of the best ways of healing and helping them and humanity as well.

I have been groomed for abuse in my life, and I felt these feelings for alot of my life. The pain, anxiety, and depression led me to make mistakes and do foolish, crazy things in my attempt to fit in, or escape the pain. I then felt ashamed, and blamed and hated myself instead of realizing I was just still a victim dealing with abuse. It’s the sad pattern we often see in life.

To those who don’t abuse, it seems just crazy, but to those who do abuse, they fully understand what’s going on. Mental and emotional abuse is like a vise grip closing off a person’s reason, beliefs and the ability to hope, love, trust and care and to grow up and have a life.

Belonging matters. We all need this kind of love, the human connection, and sense of belonging. If we don’t get it from our families, and peers, we will get it somewhere, no matter how wrong or dangerous, as humans are a pack species, even loners and introverts. We all need this kind of love or we wither and die emotionally. Belonging is love and no human can survive, thrive without it.
Sometimes we really are or feel alone because we’re lost or in a bad way or situation. This is when you need to take a serious look at yourself, and figure out is society rejecting me because of me or my behavior and attitudes, or is it because of them just hating me? If it’s due to harmful attitudes or behaviors, you can change and solve the problem. If you can’t change, are doing nothing wrong, then change your friends and community, and find people you can fit in with, who love you for you.

The truth is unless you’re evil or feeling or doing bad things, there is always human acceptance, belonging and love for you. It is true. We all belong and we all need to and can. It’s the hardest thing sometimes for a victim of abuse to try and find, and there will always been mean people and abusers in the world. But by trusting and trying, we can learn to ignore the mean, and to avoid and escape the abusers. There is alot more good than bad in the world, and with good is really where we all belong and will find acceptance and belonging.

I hope for all who have the pain, anxiety and depression that comes from being told you can’t fit in or belong, you will find the people, community and love in the new year and beyond, that will let you know you do belong, do fit in and are loved. Human love and community is a powerful thing, alot more powerful than the hate, sin and selfishness of abuse. By finding and accepting it, letting it help you, you can become stronger and be able to help yourself and others. Its how we strengthen ourselves, and connections to each other and humanity, and how we can easily, beautifully erase any hurt hate has given us. So seek love, give love and that’s how to fit in and belong to humanity.